I think my digestive system is screwed up. On Friday I had a mild gastric problem even though I ate freaking lots of food on Thursday night. And I so do mean a lot. Then, on Saturday, I was so full that all I ate was a packet of potato chips. Plus, I shared it with my sister. Then, today, I ate at Fish & Co even though I did not feel really hungry and now I have this very sick feeling in me. It's like those I-wanna-eat-but-I'm-too-full-and-I-feel-like-vomitting feeling and no one gives a damn about it. I've been feeling very bloated this few days even though I did not eat much and my mother keeps forcing me to eat what she cooks.

I feel that my mother totally doesn't understand me at all. She has changed from what she used to be last time.
I remember when I was in Primary School, she would go downstairs to pick me up from where the school bus used to drop me off. Then if I've just finished my exams, she would be very anxious to ask me how I fared. If I did well, she would buy some gifts for me to compliment me on my good results. If I did badly, she would be very unhappy and she would scold me. However, now she doesn't even give a damn about my results. After the J2 terms, she did not even bother to ask me how I fared. All she was occupied with was my sister's O-Level results. I know that as compared to terms, the O-Levels are more important but can't she like even pretend that she cared? It was until that day when I had to ask my father to sign my report card that she finally knew my results. So, that day after school, after I got into the car,
Mum: Heard from papa you did very badly for your Physics.
Me: Yar...
Why do you even ask now?
Mum: Tsk tsk tsk, never put in effort la.
Fuck. How the hell would you know if I put in effort or not considering that you're not at home half the time.
Me: (raising my voice)I did badly doesn't equal to I did not put in effort ok! Get your facts right!
Mum: Say only what, raise your voice so high for what?
On the way home, I gave her an extremely pissed off look.

Talking about O-Levels, although I got the same points as my sister, the reaction she gave the both of us was totally different. That day my sister's results got announced, she kept asking if I received any good news or not. When she heard that my sister got 9 points, she was over the moon and asked if she wanted to go Swensen's to celebrate. On the other hand, when I got my 9 points, she gave me a black face, obviously she wasn't too happy for me. Why the difference? Didn't we like get the same number of points?

Then, that time when we went to Korea, she told me to bring the credit card along to USE. Everytime I wanted to buy something, I asked her before using the card and she did not give me any you-dare-to-use-then-you-die look. So, when the bill came, she flared up.
I'm not that rich you know! Look at the amount you spent!
The bulk of the bill was for the ginseng crap she bought for her friends! Her friends are so fucking important than her own children. She managed to buy everything her friends asked for, and did not ask for but she did not even bother to buy what her relatives wanted. Blood is like thicker than water, unless you're on too much medication.

She asked me to write a complaint email to SSC on behalf of her friend. I got scolded because I told her to wait(since the computer was still loading).
Ask you do something also cannot. Then when I do for you everytime also must be quick.
First of all, she hasn't been doing lots of things for me. Secondly, if her friends are able to book badminton courts over the net, this means that they have access to the net, why the hell must they ask her to do the complain for them??!

This post is seriously getting draggy. I better end here before I go crazy and write a book.